I am (w)holy Feminine

The Primordial Feminine, the Motherline Memory, and the Myth of the Inner Masculine

Hello, and welcome to the land of A Mother Nurtured Life. Today’s loving share is an evolution of my understanding of birth, creation, and the left hand feminine path to that awakening. You are invited to ask the following:

What if the parts of you that build, initiate, and structure were never masculine at all? What if the power to create worlds was always a feminine birthright, coded into your very DNA? In this essay, I unravel the myth of the “inner masculine” and return to the primordial truth carried in every woman’s body, the holy wholeness of the feminine. From XX chromosomes to mitochondrial memory, from parthenogenesis to Magdalene’s red thread…this is a remembering.

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Several years ago, I was introduced to the concept of the structural feminine from a wise woman and mentor. She didn’t describe the world-building, the doing, of the feminine as a masculine trait. It is simply the inherent gift of the womb to build and birth entire new worlds. Wombs held by women.

This intuitively made sense to me. I never truly attributed my creative or active essence to an inner masculine self. I also cringed at the idea of referring to the functional or operational parts of myself as "my inner masculine." I understand the human desire to explain and make sense of our nature, and for this, I have come to choose language that feels good to my body.

When I do wish to describe my inner qualities, I prefer the ancient language of yin and yang. The lunar and solar selves. The yin takes form in the flow and the softness we often attribute to the feminine. The inner yang holds the growth and expansive activation, often associated with maleness.

Oftentimes, though, I don't feel the need to describe it at all. However, during a conversation with another woman about creativity and the nature of women while co-creating a project, I found myself needing to articulate something more deeply. I would no longer align with describing any aspect of myself as masculine. My structure, my building, my organizing force is another facet of my feminine nature.

The ability to birth and create worlds, including the very organized structure necessary for growth, is a feminine ability, not an adopted masculine one.
In that moment, describing the way Mother Nature structures ecosystems, seasons, and life itself with profound earnestness, it struck me.

The code for this is living in our very DNA.

I began calling it the XX Factor.
And that double X led me down a path of new ideas and possibilities, to the very heart of MATteR itself.

Structural DNA Codes

Most people know that female cells have two X chromosomes (XX), while male cells carry an X and a Y (XY). These chromosomes are responsible not only for determining biological sex but perhaps for far more essential structural qualities of life.

In women, one X chromosome is active, while the other is considered inactive (Xi).
In men, the inherited X chromosome (the feminine chromosome) is active alongside their shortened Y chromosome.

It is a potent distinction. At a chromosomal level, women do not carry a male genetic code within their bodies. Men, however, carry an active feminine expression.

Not only that, the Y chromosome is substantially smaller than the X, and researchers have long observed that the Y appears to be a deteriorated, reduced form of the X. It has lost a significant amount of genetic information over evolutionary time, likely due to the repetitive nature of its structure.

In essence, the so-called "masculine code" is layered atop a deeply feminine genetic foundation.

But the story deepens even further. Our chromosomes are not the only place the original feminine matrix is encoded.

Every human being alive today carries mitochondria, the tiny engines of energy production within each cell, that are inherited exclusively from the mother.
Mitochondrial DNA (mtDNA) passes from womb to womb, mother to child, unbroken since the dawn of humanity.

Fathers do not transmit mitochondrial DNA at all.

In this way, every living being today carries within them the flame of the motherline. An unbroken strand of feminine inheritance that powers life itself.

Remembering Wholeness

Ancient myths and evolutionary biology hint at this deeper truth.
Before sexual reproduction as we know it, life is believed to have arisen through parthenogenesis, creation without the need for male fertilization.

Many early mythologies recall the first beings as self-born, self-sourced, often emerging from the Great Mother herself. Biologically, certain species even today retain the ability for parthenogenetic reproduction, a living memory of this ancient capacity.

If life first came through a woman, through an undivided act of creation, then the original human blueprint, the double XX, carries the memory of a time before division, before otherness.

A time when the creative act itself was wholly feminine.

To say that I don’t have a masculine code within my body feels not just true intuitively, but biologically.

From this lens, shedding the skin of the "inner masculine" feels like an act of remembrance. A return to the original wholeness of womanhood.

The biological story maps what the ancient world knew.

Life is sourced through the feminine. It is formed through the feminine, and carried forward by her.

What chromosomes and mitochondria reveal, the mystery schools once encoded in sacred rites and story.

Before division, there was unity.
Before otherness, there was the womb.

It is here that the remembered path opens again, the red thread of the motherline, the mysteries of the Magdalene, the awakening of what has always lived within us.

The Red Thread and the Magdalene Mysteries

I wrote the first part of this piece two months ago. It was incomplete. I read and listened to stories about the bee priestesses. The primordial origin stories of the Egyptians. Neith and her birth of the world.

I was still experiencing this at an intellectual level.

While on a second reading of The Magdalene Mysteries, I came across the foundational principle that brought deep inner gnosis to this living theory.

Deeper than the "inner masculine" principle.
Wider than "God is a woman."

Women who find this work are here to open and receive it. Decode what is held within the ancient folklore, myths, and stories.

What if the XX is the red thread?
What if the mystery of the universe has been passed from womb to womb, still held in the body of us all? And what does that mean, specifically, for me?

Are the keys to the universe held in the red thread line, the inactive parts of our DNA, carried unbroken from womb to womb since the time of primordial creation, waiting to be reactivated through the feminine path of the motherline mysteries?

If the first human being was a woman, made from the double X, does she hold the blueprints of the cosmos, the Sophia, within her womb?

And is Magdalene’s left hand path the map of our remembering?

“Of all these rites, the chrism (anointing) is one of the most important, as it creates the Christ:
The chrism is superior to baptism…
He who has been anointed possesses everything.”
(Gospel of Philip 74:12-20)

“If Jesus is the Christ, then Magdalene is the chrism that makes him so.
She is the Anointer, the Feminine Christ of our supernal origins, "of the left."
In her chrism, her sacred elixirs of love, comes a light that dispels fallen consciousness.” ¹ Seren & Azra Bertrand, Magdalene Mysteries.

She is the living red thread, the keeper of the flame, the vessel of remembrance. She who knows the mysteries of the universe, of birth, death, and rebirth through the Earth.

And through her, are we called to awaken the (W)Holy Feminine in ourselves again, not divided, not fractured into masculine and feminine within, but whole?

I am on this path with more questions than answers at this point, but there is something here that calls me, another layer of the mystery to be revealed.

I would love to open this space and hear your thoughts and gnosis on the subjects of the primordial feminine, red thread lineage, and any other sparks that were lit during this essay. I welcome your polite disagreement and own take on origins of life.

If you would like to dive in more, I loved this essay by

Katriena Emmanuel

on the legends of parthenogenesis. She encouraged me to write this a few months ago—even though I felt like she covered the topic quite thoroughly. I am still anxiously awaiting part II 😉

Thank you for weaving this webs of remembrance with me.

In love and awe of Creation,

Danielle

1. “The Magdalene Mysteries,” Seren and Azra Bertrand.